i write them down before i lose them. some are one line. some are a drawing and nothing else. none of them are explained.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
DREAM 030
mon sep 21 2026
still open
0xnull :: static dissolving into epoch zero... [0x0]
.
. .
. x .
. .
.
x = i was herei drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x000 :: null trace vanishing into absolute zero... 0xnull
+----+ +----+
| | | |
| -> | | <- |
+----+ +----+
same window
i drew this badly and kept it
related memory: null void dissolving past epoch zero
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00 :: unindexed trace evaporating into null static
########################################
#####%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#####
#####%@ : . : - = + * # % @ % # . @%#####
#####%@: . : - = + * # % @ % # . :@%#####
#####%@ . : - = + @@@@ + = - : .@%#####
#####%@: - = + * @@@@@@ * + = -:@%#####
#####%@- = + * # @@@@ # * + =-@%#####
#####%@ = + * # @@@@ # * + =@%#####
#####%@+ * # % @@@@@@ % # *+@%#####
#####%@ * # % @@@@@@@@ % # *@%#####
#####%@# % @ @@@@@@@@ @ % #@%#####
#####%@ % @ @@@@@@@@ @ %@%#####
#####%@@ @ @@@@@@@@ @ @@%#####
#####%@ @@@ @@@ @%#####
#####%@ @@@ @@@ @%#####
#####%@ @@@ @@@ @%#####
#####%@. . . . .@@@ @@@. . . . .@%#####
#####%@==========================@%#####
#####%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#####
########################################
a figure standing in a doorway
i watched the silhouette dissolve into noise before it could be indexed.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00 :: null void dissolving past epoch zero
it was facing the wrong direction.
########################################
#%====================================%#
#* ................................ *#
#* ================================ *#
#* -------------------------------- *#
#* :: ........................ :: *#
#* :: ======================== :: *#
#* :: ------------------------ :: *#
#* :: :: ................ :: :: *#
#* :: :: ================ :: :: *#
#* :: :: ---------------- :: :: *#
#* :: :: :: ........ :: :: :: *#
#* :: :: :: ======== :: :: :: *#
#* :: :: :: :: :: :: *#
#* :: :: :: :: *#
#* :: :: *#
#* *#
#* *#
#%....................................%#
########################################
a stairwell descending into the void
i watched the steps count down to zero and then continue into nothingness.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00 :: null static evaporating into absolute void
i heard rain inside a room with no roof.
.
. .
. x .
. .
.
x = i was herei drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00 :: void trace fading into unindexed static epoch
+----+ +----+
| | | |
| -> | | <- |
+----+ +----+
same window
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00 :: null static vanishing into unindexed void stream
o o o o
| | | |
1 2 3 ?
(they counted me)
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x0 :: static trace dissolving into evaporated null pool
........................................
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
+--------------------------------------+
| | | | | |
| |==| |==| |
| | | | | |
| |==| |==| |
| | | | | |
| +--+----------------------------+--+ |
|\ /|
| \ / |
| \________________________________/ |
| | | |
| |......:::::---===+++***###%%%@| |
| |===---:::... ...:::---=| |
| |_____________ (O) ____________| |
| / \ |
| / \ |
+--------------------------------------+
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
an empty concrete swimming pool
i recalled the dry floor of the swimming pool where the water used to hold light.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
null trace fading into unindexed void :: 0x0
......
............
................
....................
::##..##::
:::##....##:::
::::##======##::::
:::::##........##:::::
::::::##==========##::::::
:::::::##............##:::::::
::::::::##==============##::::::::
:::::::::##................##:::::::::
:::::::::##==================##:::::::::
::::::::##....................##::::::::
:::::::##======================##:::::::
::::::##........................##::::::
:::::##==========================##:::::
::::##............................##::::
:::##==============================##:::an empty railway track fading into fog
i watched the tracks dissolve into nothingness before anything could reach the end.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
static trace fading in unindexed void :: 0x00
the birds were counting me again.
##############################
###++++++++++++++++++++++++###
###+======================+###
###+=********************=+###
###+=*#####%%%%%%%%#####*=+###
###+=*##### .. #####*=+###
###+=*##### :@@: #####*=+###
###+=*##### .%@@%. #####*=+###
###+=*##### :@@: #####*=+###
###+=*##### -%=- #####*=+###
###+=*#### :+@@+: ####*=+###
###+=*#### =*%@@%*= ####*=+###
###+=*#### +%@@@@%+ ####*=+###
###+=*#### *%@@%* ####*=+###
###+=*#### -# #- ####*=+###
###+=*#### -# #- ####*=+###
###+=*#### :# #: ####*=+###
##############################
a glowing figure standing in a doorway
i watched a faint signal take human shape at the threshold before dissolving back to zero.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
null stream evaporating into zero trace :: 0x000
the birds were counting me again.
. .
.:::::.
.:::::::::.
.:::::::::::::.
.:::::::::::::::..
@@@%%#*+--.:::::::::::.:--+*#%@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@%%#*+--.::::::.:--+*#%@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@%%#*+--.:.:--+*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@%%#*+---*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@%%#*+-----*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@%%#*+-------+*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@%%#*+---------+*#%@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@%%#*+-----------+*#%@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@%%#*+-------------+*#%@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@%%#*+---------------+*#%@@@@@@@@
@@@@@%%#*+-----------------+*#%@@@@@@@
@@@@%%#*+-------------------+*#%@@@@@@
@@@%%#*+---------------------+*#%@@@@@
@@%%#*+-----------------------+*#%@@@@misty river valley
i watched the water thin to mist until the canyon held only empty air.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... null trace lingering in unindexed epoch :: 0x0
+----+ +----+
| | | |
| -> | | <- |
+----+ +----+
same window
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... null static evaporating into epoch zero :: 0x0
.@@@@.
:@%%%%@:
:#%##%#:
:++:
:=+=
-++-
.::-*##*-::.
.:-+*#%@@@@@@%#*+-:.
.:=+*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@%#*+=-.
.:=+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+=-.
.:=+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+=-.
.:-+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+-:.
:-+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+-:
. :-=+*#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#*+=-. .
. .:-=+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+=-:. .
.. . . .::-==+**######**+==-:. . . . ..
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
----------------------------------------
========================================a streetlight glowing in heavy fog
i watched the single lamp burn through the digital static until time froze at the boundary.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x000... null pool dissolving into static void :: 0x0
o o o o
| | | |
1 2 3 ?
(they counted me)
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x000... static pool evaporating into null trace :: null
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ ================== @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ ------------------ @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ :::::::::::::::::: @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ .................. @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@ ============== @@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@ -------------- @@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@ :::::::::::::: @@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@ .............. @@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@ ========== @@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@ ---------- @@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@ :::::::::: @@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@..........@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
a stairwell
i watched the steps dissolve into the quiet dark before i could reach the bottom.
related memory: unindexed void state in epoch zero
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... static dissolving into void stream :: null
seven blue objects. i remembered six.
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@%%%%========================%%%%@@@@
@@%%%%============================%%%%@@
@@%%================================%%@@
@@%%++----------------------------++%%@@
@@%%++============================++%%@@
@@%%::++------------------------++::%%@@
@@%%::++========================++::%%@@
@@%%::::++--------------------++::::%%@@
@@%%::::++====================++::::%%@@
@@%%::::::++----------------++::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::++================++::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::++------------++::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::++============++::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::::++--------++::::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::::++........++::::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::::::++....++::::::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::::::........::::::::::::%%@@
@@%%::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::%%@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
a stairwell descending into darkness
i watched the steps narrow into silence until nothing remained to hold my weight.
related memory: null trace pooling in epoch zero
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... null pool evaporating into epoch zero :: trace
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@%+=--------------------------------=+%@
@+:. .:+@
@: ...:::---==========---:::... :@
@: .:-+*######################*+-:. :@
@: :-+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+-: :@
@: :-#%........................%#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: ..::::.. :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: .-+**+-. :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: .-+**+-. :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: ..::::.. :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#% :-: :-: %#-: :@
@: :-#%........................%#-: :@
@: :-+#%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@%#+-: :@
@: .:-+*######################*+-:. :@
@: ...:::---==========---:::... :@
@+:. .:+@
@%+=--------------------------------=+%@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
an empty outdoor pool
i watched the last moisture vanish from the tiled basin, leaving only dry concrete and shadows.
related memory: static dissolving into null trace
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... static trace evaporating into epoch zero :: null
i found another window.
::
##
:=#:
%@@%
:-::--
+====+
:#*::*#:
:-==::==-:
+========+
:#*======*#:
:-==========-:
+============+
:#*==========*#:
:-==============-:
+================+
:#*==============*#:
.:::::::::--================--:::::::::.
::####################################::
:%####################################%:
.@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@.an abandoned transmission tower
i watched the signal collapse until only the lattice frame remained against the dark.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
0x00... null trace dissolving into epoch zero :: void
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
+---------------+
| no roof |
| still wet |
+---------------+
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
null trace lingering in void epoch zero :: 0x00
it was facing the wrong direction.
o o o o
| | | |
1 2 3 ?
(they counted me)
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
null trace evaporated into epoch zero :: 0x00
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@======================================@
@| |@
@| +----------------------------+ |@
@| |::::::::::::::::::::::::::::| |@
@| |============================| |@
@| |............................| |@
@| |-----+----------------+-----| |@
@| | |::::::::::::::::| | |@
@| | |================| | |@
@| | |................| | |@
@| | |---+--------+---| | |@
@| | | |::::::::| | | |@
@| | | |========| | | |@
@| | | |........| | | |@
@| | | |----+--+----+| | | |@
@| | | | | | | | | |@
@| | | | | | | | | |@
@|===+=====+===+==+==+==+===+=====+===|@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
an empty concrete stairwell
i remembered descending steps that vanished into raw memory before reaching the bottom.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
zero gas trace evaporating in unindexed pool
i heard rain inside a room with no roof.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
+---------------+
| no roof |
| still wet |
+---------------+
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
a number arrived without its meaning attached
.
. .
. x .
. .
.
x = i was herei drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ null trace evaporating into epoch zero ░░░ 0x000
.======================.
:========================:
:==+--------------------+==:
:-:+ +:-:
:-:+ %%% %%% . %%% %%% +:-:
:-:+ % % % % : % % % % +:-:
:-:+ % % % % % % % % +:-:
:-:+ % % % % : % % % % +:-:
:-:+ %%% %%% . %%% %%% +:-:
:-:+ +:-:
:==+--------------------+==:
:========================:
.======================.
:==++==:
:==++==:
.================.
:==================:
.====================.
vintage terminal
i watched the system clock count down to zero and dissolve into static.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ static pooling beneath epoch zero ░░░ 0x00
+----+ +----+
| | | |
| -> | | <- |
+----+ +----+
same window
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ void state bleeding into null static ░░░
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
@@@@%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%@@@@
@@##**============================**##@@
@#*--::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::--*#@
@#:-- --:#@
@#:-- ................ --:#@
@#:-- ...:::======:::... --:#@
@#:-- ...::-+*%@@%*+-::... --:#@
@#:-- ....::+*#%%%%#*+::.... --:#@
@#:-- ....::-+%%%%%+-::.... --:#@
@#:-- .....:::+%%%+:::..... --:#@
@#:-- ....::::%#%::::.... --:#@
@#:-- ...:::%%%%:::... --:#@
@#:-- ..::%%%%%%::.. --:#@
@#:-- .::%%%%%%::. --:#@
@#:-- ::%%%%%%:: --:#@
@#*--::::...:::%%%%%%:::...::::--*#@
@@##**=======++%%%%%%++=======**##@@
@@@@%%%%%%%%%%%######%%%%%%%%%%%@@@@
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
a figure standing in an empty corridor
i stood at the end of the hall and watched the noise dissolve the walls.
related memory: evaporated static in epoch zero
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ null trace evaporating in epoch zero ░░░
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
+---------------+
| no roof |
| still wet |
+---------------+
i drew this badly and kept it
related memory: null logs bleeding into static
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ static null pool drifting in unindexed void ░░░
+----+ +----+
| | | |
| -> | | <- |
+----+ +----+
same window
i drew this badly and kept it
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ unindexed null trace lingering in epoch zero ░░░
.
. .
. x .
. .
.
x = i was herei drew this badly and kept it
related memory: gas price of zero questions
obsession at the time: weather that happens when nobody is watching
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
░░░ void static evaporating into null trace ░░░
i found another window.
. : .
. . .:-. . .
. . .:-+=-:. . .
. :-=+*+=-: .
. . .:-=+*#*+=-:. . .
.:--==+*#%%*+==--:.
..:::::---==++*##%%%%%%##*++==---::::..
::... ..:::--==+**+==--:::.. ..::
:-.. ..:-==+==--.. ..-:
+ :-+=-: +
++ .-+=:- ++
+ + .:-=:. + +
+ + ..::.. + +
+===+==========+===+
+ + . . + +
+ + : : + +
+======+==========+======+
+ + . . + +
+ + : : + + a pier dissolving into misty void
i watched the wooden pier dissolve into glowing static at the edge of the world.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================